It's been a while since I have blogged and I do apologize for this but I am back and ready to conquer what's in front of me.
These last couple of months have been very busy with schedules full of different activities like the end of the school year, doctors appointments, graduations, our very first fundraising event, and family visiting. Let's just say things have never been so busy. But I have to admit it has been a time where God has once again shown me that he is in utmost control. It never ceases to amaze me how things all work for the good. As any parent, I have doubted my parenting skills especially with Adrian because of where he is developmentally, I often wonder if what I am doing is enough. Am I doing everything to help my child? I wonder that every single day. I guess I could say something is working. See about two nights ago we were in our routine of getting everyone showered and ready for bed. We had just finished with Adrian. My mom was sitting on the couch with Aby (that's my daughter) and Adrian went to sit next to my mom. I was putting things away when my mom calls me out to see the kids. To my surprise Adrian had his head on my moms lap and he was actually letting Aby touch his hair and his face. She would put her head against Adrian's and he let her, it melted my heart that he would let her do that and I say that because he doesn't really like having his siblings in his space or to even touch him. Then yesterday, it happened again another moment of interaction but now with AJ (that's his brother) I was getting ready to leave to take Adrian to school. Adrian was sitting in a chair that used to be his but we have taken out for Aj. AJ went to the chair because he wanted to sit there but Adrian pushed him away and Aj fell down and started to cry. As I was watching this my first instinct was to reprimand Adrian but I realized that Adrian didn't do it with malice he just doesn't realize how strong he is, so I go on to tell him "Adrian you need to be gentle with your brother he is smaller than you" as I was telling him this he looked over at Aj who was on the other side where the couch was, so I proceeded to tell Adrian "you need to give your brother a kiss". It was like they both understood Aj walked over to Adrian and when he was close Adrian took Aj by his arm and gave him a kiss on the forehead. At that moment I realized maybe I am doing something right. I want my kids to love each other and take care of each other. When I saw this I realized they know and they will be ok. And once again God comes and shows me he is in control. This is a one day at a time, sometimes I get overwhelmed just to think of what the future holds for us. My stomach goes in knots just to think of how Adrian's life is going to be. But in it all I have to trust that God knows everything and I don't need to know it all I just have to take it day by day.
These last couple of months have been very busy with schedules full of different activities like the end of the school year, doctors appointments, graduations, our very first fundraising event, and family visiting. Let's just say things have never been so busy. But I have to admit it has been a time where God has once again shown me that he is in utmost control. It never ceases to amaze me how things all work for the good. As any parent, I have doubted my parenting skills especially with Adrian because of where he is developmentally, I often wonder if what I am doing is enough. Am I doing everything to help my child? I wonder that every single day. I guess I could say something is working. See about two nights ago we were in our routine of getting everyone showered and ready for bed. We had just finished with Adrian. My mom was sitting on the couch with Aby (that's my daughter) and Adrian went to sit next to my mom. I was putting things away when my mom calls me out to see the kids. To my surprise Adrian had his head on my moms lap and he was actually letting Aby touch his hair and his face. She would put her head against Adrian's and he let her, it melted my heart that he would let her do that and I say that because he doesn't really like having his siblings in his space or to even touch him. Then yesterday, it happened again another moment of interaction but now with AJ (that's his brother) I was getting ready to leave to take Adrian to school. Adrian was sitting in a chair that used to be his but we have taken out for Aj. AJ went to the chair because he wanted to sit there but Adrian pushed him away and Aj fell down and started to cry. As I was watching this my first instinct was to reprimand Adrian but I realized that Adrian didn't do it with malice he just doesn't realize how strong he is, so I go on to tell him "Adrian you need to be gentle with your brother he is smaller than you" as I was telling him this he looked over at Aj who was on the other side where the couch was, so I proceeded to tell Adrian "you need to give your brother a kiss". It was like they both understood Aj walked over to Adrian and when he was close Adrian took Aj by his arm and gave him a kiss on the forehead. At that moment I realized maybe I am doing something right. I want my kids to love each other and take care of each other. When I saw this I realized they know and they will be ok. And once again God comes and shows me he is in control. This is a one day at a time, sometimes I get overwhelmed just to think of what the future holds for us. My stomach goes in knots just to think of how Adrian's life is going to be. But in it all I have to trust that God knows everything and I don't need to know it all I just have to take it day by day.
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